the May issue of Share International, we noted a news item from the Santa
Monica Outlook reporting that Californian Bill Tritt had been completely
cured of AIDS. In this interview with film producer Michael
D'Addio, Bill Tritt describes the self- healing that led to this cure.
MD: Before we talk about your healing, tell me something about your medical
background. I understand you're a professional in the field.
BT: I have been in medicine all of my life. I started working in a hospital
at age 13 as a volunteer, became a hospital unit secretary, went into
the military and became a hospital corpsman. I then went on to take an
RN in nursing, combining my college education with the Naval School of
Health Sciences in San Diego.
I practised in the State of California for eight years and went into administration
in the John Wayne Cancer Clinic at UCLA (the University of California
at Los Angeles). I dealt with people every day who were dying of
cancer and saw the techniques and medication they were using on these
MD: What did you think about that treatment?
BT: I got to the point where I felt the chemotherapy was hurting people
more than it was helping them. Patients would ask me, "Should I get
on this experimental program in chemotherapy, or in monoclonal antibodies?
Should I get on this melanoma program?"
And I found myself saying, "I can't speak to you as a doctor, and
I can't tell you what to do or tell you to go against what your doctor
recommends". But when they asked me what I would do if I were them,
I would say that I wouldn't get on the chemotherapy or on any of those
therapies because the success rate was very low.
And the damage that the chemicals and drugs do to your body far outweighs
what the disease does to your body. I'm not saying that all cancer falls
into that category. There's a lot of cancer that is helped by chemotherapy,
like lymphoma. They have a very good success rate with lymphoma.
But with the majority of cancer, the drugs they give you are so toxic
to your body that they do more damage than what the disease is doing to
MD: You are probably aware of documented stories of many people who have
cancers that were cured - and it wasn't through conventional medicine.
BT: Right. I know about people who have refused conventional chemotherapies
and conventional cancer treatments and have survived, especially in the
case of melanoma. We ran a melanoma clinic at UCLA and
they had about a 95 per cent failure rate. The other five per cent did
not go onto the melanoma program and never had a recurrence of melanoma
I've talked with a lot of people that say they switched over to a regimen
of vitamins, healthy eating, massage, meditation and getting in contact
with God, whatever their God might be, and got cured. God to everyone
is different. I think that the people who do survive probably are more
like the people who beat AIDS and survived. They did self-healing.
MD: Let's talk about your own self-healing of AIDS. First, how sick were
you when this healing happened?
BT: Very sick. I had already had a near-death experience in which I left
my body because I had been depleted of potassium and my heart rate was
so low. I floated out of my body and I experienced a blue light that surrounded
me as I progressed upward. During the time of my accelerating up, I felt
very powerful, very energized, as though all the knowledge I wanted to
know was at my fingertips.
Beyond the blue light was a white light, and, at the horizon, where the
two lights met, was an entity in the white light. He was talking to me,
guiding me. He had a lot of love, made me feel comfortable, not frightened.
Someone there tried to have me come over into the white light.
But I was told "if you come into the white light, you can't go back
through it into the blue light and into your body". So, I chose not
to cross over to the white light.
MD: This reminds me of a quote from Cielito Pascual's article in Share
International (May 1989) where George Garcia describes the experience
that led to his own self-healing of Aids-Related-Syndrome: "I was
floating through space... A blinding flash of white light surrounded me
and flowed through every atom of my body. A wave of ecstasy, as in an
orgasm, coursed through my body and I felt a tingle of electricity in
each and every cell."
BT: Yes. My experiences in the blue light were very similar to what he
experienced. It is an electric feeling in every cell. I think I was probably
being shown I didn't have to die, that I had a choice. Because I believe
that if I had gone into the white light I would have been giving up. I
would have died. I wouldn't have regretted it, though, because it was
a very nice feeling.
But the doctors gave me potassium and I was able to move again, and I'm
glad that I was able to have the opportunity to come back. But that experience
gave me an awareness; it's something that I'll never forget. And it led
me to more and more experiences of detachment, meditation and out-of-body
experiences, which ultimately led me to the one dream that I feel changed
my health around.
MD: What was that dream, and how ill were you when it occurred?
BT: I thought it was my time. I was down to 100 pounds - I dropped from
130 down to 100 in a matter of one week and went into the hospital. I
lost the sight in my right eye. I was dying, and every night I would be
floating above my body and having these extensive conversations with what
I called a "good" identity and a "bad" identity.
It was a review of my life, starting when I was a child, each one pointing
out good or bad things about my life, with me as the judge. Every night
I would talk to these entities and they would go through my whole life.
And when it got to the years when I was in the Navy I was afraid because
I knew I only had a short time left to discuss and that would be the end
of it. Well, that's not the way it turned out.
MD: What happened?
BT: I was guided by these entities into a higher consciousness. I had
a 'dream' where I was in this medieval-type setting and these knights
came along and rescued me. At that stage of my illness, the only thing
keeping my body going along was [the drug] Deladed. In this medieval place
or time, Deladed was illegal and punishable by death if you were caught
with it. The knights came to my rescue and they gave me some Deladed.
They said they were going to take me to a place to be cleansed, and told
me that after I was cleansed I couldn't take Deladed anymore, that I could
not take drugs that were going to harm my body, and that I could not be
promiscuous. They said that I had to do things that would not give me
the disease again, because if I got the disease again, I would never have
a chance to get rid of it.
MD: Describe the knights.
BT: There were three or four of them, and they appeared to be knights
in armor - except that they had crosses on them.
MD: This makes me think of an order of beneficent knights during the last
big plague, considered the worst since the Black Plague. They were called
the Knights of St. John Hospitaler, and they were an order of knights
in service to humanity and at that time helping victims of the plague.
Over the front and back of their armor they wore white square material
with big red crosses on them.
BT: That describes them quite well. It was a cloth that they had over
their armor. It's kind of hard to zoom in on whether the cloth was white
and the cross was red. I know there was a cloth and a cross. And I immediately
identified with them as people who were going to help. Although I was
fully aware of what was happening to me, I didn't know where I was.
I just knew that I was there, that I was sick, and that I didn't have
any medication. There was a very warm feeling as I heard the knights approach
on horseback and when I saw them, and I saw the cross over their armor,
I felt a sense of comfort and knew they were going to help. The Deladed
they gave me got me well enough for them to take me to the cleansing machine.
MD: Cleansing machine?
BT: Like an electrical machine, with lights and everything. The actual
machine was big - about six feet by six feet. Your energy went into one
side (which was small and narrow), and you (your energy, that is) came
other side in a long, cylinder-like tube. There was an orgasmic feeling
going through this.
I knew that it was a psychic or cosmic kind of experience that I was having.
And when I came out, I felt 10, 15 years younger, more vital, more healthy.
Like I was before I became ill. I knew that the disease was
gone. And that's when I woke up in my hospital bed and found my eyesight
MD: How do you think this healing process worked?
BT: Well, it wasn't actually like putting your physical body into this
machine; it took energy. You put your body's energy and your mind's energy
into it and it super-charges you, and when you get back to your body from
detachment, you take that charge with you. It heals your body. I believe
that's what happened to me.
MD: You say you got your eyesight back. How long had it been gone?
BT: Oh, it had been gone for, I would say, about four days.
MD: How long was it before the doctors verified what you knew?
BT: Well, I told the doctors that my eyesight was coming back. And, of
course, they had to confirm it. They sent the eye doctor in the same day,
took blood the same day, and they also took the spinal tap the same day.
And they had the preliminary results on the blood the next day. My blood
Two days later they had the results from the spinal fluid, saying the
disease no longer existed there. When you have AIDS, by the way, you can
feel the virus existing in your body and you know it's there. My life
didn't pass before my eyes anymore; the conversations with the entities
totally went away.
I knew the disease was gone. But though you can feel that it's gone, you're
still wrapped up in the medical view of things, and so at first you want
to have verification. But when they told me it was gone, saying at the
same time, "It doesn't mean that it's completely gone; it may come
back," I didn't believe that.
MD: Were you then completely well?
BT: Because you've been sick for a long time, it takes as long to get
better again. Within four days of the occurrence, I was out of the hospital
and came home. I had a sick spell while I was at home, but that was mainly
because of the drugs they had me on. You can't just stop taking narcotic
drugs because you'll go through withdrawals and you can die from withdrawals,
But, once I was able to get off of all the drugs, I started gaining weight
again, getting color back, being more active. I feel great, no problems.
MD: You seem to think the drugs they give people for AIDS (and cancer
too, as you said before) are as much a problem as the disease.
BT: You cannot get well with the drugs, you cannot. Because the drugs
will kill you quicker than the AIDS. I'm not saying people aren't in pain
with the disease or having discomfort, and some medication at that time
But, I think that the big mistake that doctors are making is over-medicating
people. And, it's not an easy road to get well - but then, it's not an
easy road to getting sick, either. So, you have to channel your energies
to getting off the drugs and getting well, instead of being comfortable
with what the doctors say and taking the medicine to make you feel better
The body can heal itself. We only use a very small percentage of our brain
as it is. So we have a vast, untapped resource. They say space is the
final frontier. I think the mind is the final frontier. The cosmos, our
connection with God (or whatever you believe) is open to everyone, but
you have to be receptive to it.
By keeping yourself out with drugs, you won't be as receptive. People
have a tendency to pay attention to what's physical, to what is in front
of them. If you have a doctor telling you what steps to take, you tend
to say, "this is what I should do". But in reality, people's
own lives, their own minds, their own projections, are what they should
Otherwise, they are not going to get better. They are going to stay with
the traditional AMA treatment for
AIDS. Hopefully there will be a serum or vaccine that will come along,
but that's going to be another 10, 20 or maybe more years down the line.
And there's another way to go.
MD: What does your doctor say about all this?
BT: I've had follow-up blood work and my blood is negative for the disease.
My doctor doesn't know why the disease has left.
MD: Have you ever explained to the doctors that it was a mental/spiritual
healing, and if you have, do you find that there is a reluctance on their
part to accept that?
BT: Well, my doctor is a very good doctor and a very good listener. All
he said when I told him what happened was, "You are better and we
don't know how it happened. You baffled the medical community, and we
are going to try to find out if there is something in your blood or spinal
fluid which is the reason you got better."
It's been months, and no one has come to me and said, "Yes, we found
out why you were cured", and I don't think they will ever find a
MD: Are you still improving, physically?
BT: Yes. I'm treating myself with natural foods, vitamins, massage and
other healthy substances. And I've been getting progressively better.
MD: What advice would you give others who have AIDS and who might want
to try self-healing?
BT: They should recognize that healing is not an overnight thing. You
have to constantly meditate and detach. Otherwise the body will pull you
down so much so that you can't take your mind out of the suffering and
the misery and the thought of dying and of doom.
MD: The mind needs to take hold of the body and do what's necessary.
BT: Exactly. And when you're in a detached mode, in an out-of-body experience,
you do use more of your mind than you do on the physical plane. Of course
some people will dismiss this as malarkey, and say it doesn't happen.
But the people who will say that are the people who don't know how
to do it.
They don't know how to make themselves relax enough, they don't know how
to put themselves in a meditation mode in order to achieve the detachment
and the healing process. All through history, people have healed themselves,
and they haven't done it alone, but through out-of-body experience and
through contact with the cosmos and the universe.
I believe if I were to become sick again, not with AIDS, but if I had
a car accident or injured a leg or arm, I could call upon that divine
dream again. But we should only call on that soul power when it's necessary.
Not for entertainment.
MD: Are you now in touch with or have you met anyone else who has had
AIDS and is cured of it?
BT: Well, I have met a few people who are in remission. They've been tested
for it and it is still in their blood. But I think that they are a bridge.
They are in remission but haven't quite crossed the bridge to healing
themselves. Perhaps if they are made aware that other people have overcome
the disease, they would be the next people to step into the healing process.
MD: Would you endorse the idea of being in touch with other people to
create a kind of networking about this kind of self-healing?
BT: I would welcome hearing from anyone who reads this article or hears
of cures to get in touch with the magazine so that they can pass their
names on to me or to you. I think it's very important to have a group
of people who have been healed to get together and speak out.
I'd also like to get the message across to people who have AIDS that they
don't have to die of the disease, though the doctors will tell them that
they are dying and will instill that in their minds. It's wrong for doctors
to do that. People need to know that there are others like me who had
the disease - had it in the central
nervous system and in the brain - and it's totally gone. As for me, I
plan on living a long life and getting better every day.